it's A bloody f**ked up world

2005-06-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm... wat should i write today.... well there's the Gelanggang competition that @ndika took part in.. it was one of the best competition i've ever took part in!!! well for those yg kurang paham pasal gelanggang, here's a brief explanation. kat atas stage ader 2 group.. one group starts of with lagu juara, yengki then kelantan. after that the other group does the same. then the first group continues with their set after which the other group ends the round. the best part is that the karut has to spontaniously come up with the lyrics. the first round kiter lawan rajawali. it was quite mendak coz their karut was kinda nervous so otak jam. couldn't blame him! at least he had the courage to enter the comp as a karut!! then came the finals!! we were going against Dendang Mutiara!!!! adek beradek berjumper di peringkat akhir pertandingan gelanggang!!!! gerek giler!!! da macam show kat causeway siak!!! Hakim Dendang Lawan Bobo @ndika!!! The competition lepak giler! kiter awok2 dah lepak2 ketawa kat atas stage, audience pon takleh tahan!! those who were there know wat i mean.. all i can say is tat" ADDA KALAH~~~ ADDA MENANG~~~!!!! alrite, time to go.. akhir kata dari Org_gilak," biar tak malu, asalkan ader kemaluan!!!"

2005-05-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

its been a bloody looooong time!!!! hahaha..
i don't think people still bother to check my blog anymore, not that it matters. well~ what has been happening in my life...~ to think of it, quite a lot has happened since the last time i blogged.fisrt of all there's the KL trip with @ndiks.. that went really well!!! we didn't do anything much( think tats the purpose of a holiday..) k lets start from the begining.

arrived at larkin at around 11 plus pm with kiwok( my bro), indra and wandy. waited for the rest. at around 1230( patotnyer jumper kol 12.. janji melayu...), they arrived... so happy to see all my @ndika bros after sooo long, especially bobo. kiwak rambot dah panjang giler sak.. lagik panjang dari aku..

then we boarded the bus. was cloudy so couldn't star gaze... i ended up sleeping... arrived in KL at 330. 1 hour earlier than we expected. had breakfast...( kiwak, AKU TAK PERNAH MAKAN BREAKFAST KUL TIGA SETENGAH PAGI!! but come to think of it, i usually wake up during lunch time!!) headed over to bobo's apartment. then the most unthought of thing happened. we watched porn at 430 in the morning.. Picture this, a bunch of sleepy guys watching a couple fucking on tape when suddenly the adzan was heard!! the best part was that we didn't even make an effort to pause the bloody thing to make way for the adzan!!! neraka jahannam!!! here we come!!!

then we slept a bit, got up then headed for Sunway Lagoon!!!! muahahaha!! we stayed there for about 7 hours!! jgn tangan aku, konek dan jugak bopelir aku pon kecot sak!! dah macam kismis!! but the best part was i managed to witness my first nipple slip!!! muahahahahhahaha... nak tau lebih lanjut tanyer aku sendrik.. HIDOP TENTERA KURA KURA!!!

after seven hours of hippopotamusing, we got back, ate then went to petaling street for some shopping!!! what happened there was mostly a blur. then comes the time my will power is tested.. the guys wanted to head over to Novo, a local club. it took all of my strength to resist the temptation!!! but i managed to hold off the urge to go over there, get myself drunk, make a fool out of myself, grab some ass and wake up with a head the size off the boulder that badang threw.

2005-01-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

amcamz!!! lawa tak? bagi mereka yg tak tau, korang leh access tagboard atau profile aku dengan hanya menekan butang di atas ruang ini.. k, aku nak main game.. lain kali aku bebual panjang sikit...

2005-01-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm

2004-12-31T01:07:00.000+08:00

puki mak haram.. korang asal ni? ader hal ngan aku cakap depan2 ah! buto! jangan sound aku kat net! net takleh buat pape... chibai ah! tunjuk muker ah.. limit limit korang bantai aku ker kalau nak bunuh pon ok jugak ar.. at least korang pon dapat puaskan hati korang per.. pls ah, jangan berperangai budak2 ah... puki mak tul.... to [me], berani cakap berani tanggung ah.. kirakan cakap sorry jer dah leh ah.. eh, sorry tak main ah... boleh tak kalau aku tumbok muker org pastu cakap sorry? aku tak tau ah kalau aku menyinggung perasaan sesaper tapi aku tengah frus sekarang so jangan carik pasal ngan aku ah... butolah!

2004-12-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

kiwak.... lamer giler sak aku tak update... so.... aper aku nak tulis eh.... i'm in the publishing room righ now.. skipped law tutorial. life is so hectic now. so many stuff to do.. can't skive as much as i would want to.. social life is withering.. having my presentation later.. still haven't finished preparing.. kinda hoping time would just stop!! so i can relax a bit and complete all the stuff i have to do... but what to do.. just have to make do with wat i have.. think i'll go for a smoke before class starts(which is at 11, 5 mins from now..) haiz... see ya.. till the next time i manage to find time to update this bloody thing..

2004-10-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

Arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kinda feeling edgy right now... just got home from terawih...( kau! siddiq pergi sembahyang terawih sak!!) haven't seen my girl for 9 bloody long days!! how fucked up can tat be! but always look on the bright side... at least i shave a girl! HEHEHE.... let's see... nothing much has been happening in my life.. been fasting, helping out around the house.... anyway, we got 2nd for perdana... tapi raser cam tak best gitu coz tu last perdana for Bobo... sedih giler sak.... tapi its ok.. bak kater pepatah, patah tumbuh hilang berganti... insya allah... i miss my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh! sorry.. don't want to be like naz but i really miss my darling! haiz.... think i'll stop now and go call her... till next time...

2004-09-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

just wanted to share this song with you.. jiwang giler nyer!!

Usah Tinggal Daku Kasih
by Exist

Usah tinggal daku kekasih
Usah biar aku bersedih
Percintaan ini memang zalim
Tak bermata tak berhati
Seolah-olah kini teracunnya dunia
Kita pernah riang bersama
Kita pernah rasai duga
Mereka ingin kita berpisah
Tanpa harga tanpa nilai
Tanpamu aku sepi
Ku tetap akan berpegang janji
Tuk hidup bersamamu walau diri sengsara
Tiada lagi airmata dapat ku merayu
Untuk bersamamu
Jgn tinggalkan aku
Walau sementara
Jgn biarkan dendam mempermainkan kita
Di mataku hanya kau
Penawar dari syurga
Usah dikau tinggalkan
Tinggal daku kekasih

thanks farhan for introducing this song to me!!

2004-09-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

korrang ni banyak sangat songeh ah!! aku tengah floating jadi jangan kacau aku ah!!! dah 3 tahun sak tak cam gini...

anyway, to update all of you on my life, aku nyer internet connection dah rabak.. dah jadi giler cam aku jugak so don't expect me to update much..( not tat i update everyday even with a good working connection!)

life is good rite now.. got to know tat i'm going back to school next year.. which means NS will have to wait! muahahaha... can't stop thinkin' of farah.. haiz... hehehe.. kiwak! siddiq tengah floating eh!? macam siak ah... org kalered aku pon takleh lawan balik.. sial habis.. but i think its worth it..

well, back on earth, handphone aku baru jer rosak! puki tul... tengah asyik msg2, aleh2 dier kiok.. abih takleh on.. tak ke menggeramkan! kelam kabut aku tukar hp ngan bapak aku.. habiskan msging, baru check phone aku... muahahaha.. (sial peh budak, bukan nak check phone dulu! nampak sah dahi cap noonzzz..)

andika is going great.. although preperation for the comp is kinda slow.. but i think all the pieces are falling into place.. as for drama, nothing much is happening, or maybe i just don't keep updated anymore.. think the new committee is doing their job.. being independant is the key guys.. remember, if you wanna do it, have fun while doing it.. don't give a damn what others think.. as long as your hearts are in it.. and for god sake organise more workshops lah!! dont just gather during slack sessions jer.. and one more thing, i have to say that i'm impressed with some individuals for the efforts on researching into the elements of drama...

well, think tats enough for now... gotta go sleep.. and guys, DR LOVE IS OFFICIALLY IN THE HOUSE OF LOVE!!! MUAHAHAHAHA

2004-09-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

I FEEL GOOD!~ NA NA NA NA NA NA NA~ I KNEW THAT I WOULD!~ NA NA NA NA NA NA NA~ MUAHAHAHAHHA... life is great right now. tats all i have to say...

ask me and i just might tell you why...

for now, i just leave you guys wondering.. for those yg dah tau takmu spoil the fun ah!!

big clue: haiz.................................

2004-08-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

heya..been a long time since i last blogged.. a lot has happened but i don't know where to start.. hmmm.. ok first of all i failed my SIP.. don't ask why coz i might just screw you just for being a pain in the arse.. well, a lot of the things that happened are kinda private.. Unlike the exceptional few, i'd like to keep it that way.. don't want to tell the whole world.. if it involved only me, i might tell you guys but this involves other people so i shall be nice and spare them of the shame.. been slacking... a lot.. hmmm... what else happened...? oh yes, titisan managed to get to the finals of a competition held last week.. andika managed to get into the finals last week also.. kinda in a dilemma right now.. balancing between dikir and drama.. hayat is questioning my commitment to andika.. but lets just go with the flow.. all i can say is that i am still interested in both forms of art.. slacked with helzie, faz and wawa just now.. well actually, it was just helzie coz the love birds left about 5 minutes after i arrived.. did a lot of stupid stuff with helzie... just the simple pleasures of life.. for example, eating an ice cream and having ur faced covered with the ice cream in the process.. had a lot of strange stares and laughs from strangers but it was worth it having the opportunity to make people smile once in a while.. ppl in singapore are to serious! they should just sit down relax and watch a movie or something.. that brings me to another stupid act we did; sit in front of a large screen TV and watched lord of the rings.. all this was fine except the fact that the TV was at the entrance of best denki in century square! hahahhaa.. that was helzie's idea.. well, me thinks me stop now.. me no want bore you pple.. me go now.. me hungry... me go eat! me say bye bye!!

2004-07-05T09:42:00.000+08:00

hey! its a rocky time right now.. my SIP is in a very delicate balance right now coz i skipped a day of work without my LO's approval.. but kinda feeling ok coz of what helzie told me.. thanks bro! just hope everthing turns out well.. just wanted to tell you guys that hayat's brother just past away due to his brain tumor. really upset me to see hayat so depressed. what upset me even more was the fact that i can't do anything to cheer him up. but he's a strong guy and i'm sure he'll get through this. hmmm.... what else happened in my life lately? nothing much really.. just worked a lot.. anyway my pay is damn low! its 420 mullah a month! bak kata bangla," Work many many, pay little little! stupid bangla!" but then again, its DEFINITELY better than schooling! hahahaha.. suckers!! been slacking a lot too.. its like a daily routine.. go to work, get back from work, slack, go home, then sleep, wake up, go to work, get back from work, slack, go home, then sleep, wake up, go to work, get back from work, slack, go home, then sleep, wake up, go to work..etc you guys get the idea.. anyway, found out that some of the slack club members are helpign out Theater Titisan! haha.. truthfully, i think it's a great opportunity to upgrade urselves.. would have taken up the offer myself but wat to do, i'm a man of commitments.. hahahaha.. think i'll stop here now.. i'll update you on my life soon.. for the time being, here's wat i have to say," GREECE WON!!! HAHAHAHAHHA! TO ALL YOU PORTUGAL FANS, LU RILEK SUA!!!!"

2004-06-22T13:08:00.000+08:00

hey! kinda bored right now coz i'm in the office but there's not a single thing to do!! well, for those of you who don't know, i'm having my attachment right now.. fuckin' bored! anyway, haven't been updating much coz i kinda lost the mood to blog.. i wanted to add an entry the other day but after writing a whole essay of wat i wanted to say, the whole screen went blank and i had to restart all over again.. wasn't gonna waste my time.. if your reading this, it means i managed to publish this on my first try! to update you on my trip to THE HOLY LAND, it was great!! did'n feel like going home sia.. the feeling you get when you pray over there is totally different from what you get over here.. maybe coz of the lack of entertainment.. all the entertainment available there were in arabic.. wasn't going to learn arabic just to watch TV!! nayway, for those who are wondering, i have not changed so don't worry! the only way i changed is that i got a bit darker.. it was damn hot over there( 43 degrees average) but you don't sweat! so its not that bad.. playing a game of checkers with my cousin right now while chatting with fana.. going for lunch soon! that's the highlight of the day, everyday!! hahahaha so bloody damn boring!! think i said that too much already.. gonna stop now.. just hope i can publish it this time..

2004-06-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

backz!!!!!!!!!! it feels soooooo good to be home!! haiz... never knew i'd miss singapore! ~~this is home!~ truly~~ hahhahahaha... well the trip was great! the feeling you get when you pray over there is so much different from over here.. one reason maybe becoz its damn hot over there.. hehe.. saw ka'bah.. i was like," whoa..............................................................................................................." stood there rooted to the ground for a good 5 minutes sak! the girls over there had very nice eyes!! well, can't comment on other parts coz they're all covered up! saw the full moon on top of gabal nur.. it was so inspiring! loved every second of the trip but still missed people back here.. so once i touched down here, went home changed from wearing a jubah and sarban to tshirt, jeans and a snow cap and went out to meet the guys.. so much for jet lag!!! went to aisyah's bday gathering.. supposed to go for dk the next day but once my head touched the softness of my pillow, i was dead asleep! didn't even wake up for morning prayer!(kaUUUUU! abg berg sembahyang sak!!!) anyway, i just got back from dk practice.. damn tired but just had to login for a while.. just for the record, i have not changed from being org gilak to org alim.. so guys, don't worry... but there have been changes to my life... kalau dah gi umrah tapi tak tukar buat aper gi umrah... for starters, i have not said a single bad word in this entry, YET.. hahaha.. think i'll end of here.. once again, ITS GREAT TO BE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-05-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.... giong umrah tomorrow.. feeling very nervous.. felt excited but now feeling a bit down.. found out that shikin has finally moved on.. supposed to feel happy for her( which i am actually) but kinda feeling depressed.. don't know why.. maybe coz i kinda thought we'ed get back together but looks like tats not gonna happen.. but wat ever it is, i hope that guy treats her well coz i'm gonna fucking kill him if he doesn't.( sorry about the language, supposed to be a good boy by now...) anyway, se all of you in 10 days time.. gonna enjoy myself over there.. thanks for all the msgs you sent me..

2004-05-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

hey!!!!!!!!!!!1 its been a bloody long time!!! haha.. well, just couldn't find the time to blog.. its either i'm studying for my exams, playing my game or i'm outside... well, life has been a drag for the past few weeks.. it's still an improvement from the fucked up situation i went through before that! been trying to get through my semester.. met shikin the other day.. haiz... sweet giler! been a long time since i last saw her.. she looks gd.. think all those dieting she's been doing is paying off, though i still won't encourage her to diet.. anyway, went for chalet the other day.. had a great time! hehe.. even managed to see some people vomit after swallowing salt! dah gitu takper, sink pulak sumbat! ish!!! abis tu, toilet asyik ader org jer, lagik2 time malam.. nak kencing pon susah.. ader jugak org yg berdua2an masuk toilet.. konon nyer nak save time lah kan~! HAIYAH!!! think i'll stop here.. dah penat nak type banyak2.. till next time.. maybe in a few weeks! (",)

2004-04-05T02:56:00.000+08:00

well, its been a long time since i last blogged.. life has been quite fucked up since then.. in a very depressing mood lately.. but one highlight in the past few weeks was pentas.. i was so called the MC for the show lah.. was quite nervous before i started talking but once i got started, there was no stopping! the audience were great! so sporting.. made me even more comfortable to interact with them.. but there were a couple of things that happened unexpectedly.. my phone rang right when i was in the spotlight! bodoh! lain kali kalau nak perform jangan bawak hp! but couldn't get out of it then so i just picked up the phone and pretended that it was all part of the show! then there was the fire alarm! siak tul, aku tengah bebual sak.. aleh2 tu bender bunyik! kanchong jap.. nasib baik otak tak jam.. managed to cover up for the alarm trip.. overall, i was quite satisfied with my performance but i still think i could have done better.. aper tak! semua spontan sak! kalau aku prepare before hand, confirm lagik power!!( ish budak ni.. puji diri sendiri lak..) anyway, eveyone had fun and tat was the important thing..everything went on smoothly except for minor glitches.. anyway, went for the opening reception for the umrah thing.. kiwak, aku dah macam rusa masuk kampong sak.. semua kat saner pakai jubah ngan sarban.. kurang2 pon baju kurung ah.. aku tak! aku pakai tailored pants ngan shirt! aku ingat nak gi jemputan sekali kena gi function yg serupa dangan forum perdana!!nasib baik aku ni sort sikit.. kalau tak confirm dah tak kena gaya... think tats all for now, gonna figure out wat video i'm gonna do for my project which is due besok!! stress!!!!!!!

2004-03-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

this blog is dedicated to my mother.. sorry to say but today, u have been so bloody damn naggy! siak betul ah.. buat ni salah, buat tu salah.. asyik nak bising jer! balik jer nak bising, kan lagik baik aku takder kat rumah.. aman sak dunia... aku keluar salah,... habiskan duit lah, aper lah... dok rumah pun salah, menghabis kan electricity bill.. kan samer tu! abeh nak buat aper sak! aku gi mampos pun baik! AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to all those reading, don't start saying" she's ur mom.. how can u say this..blah, blah" fuck all of you too... jaga diri korang sudah, tak yah nak nasihat aku... puki betul... bak kater yan, hypocrites and backstabbers suck, BIG TIME...

2004-03-16T01:29:00.000+08:00

how many days has it been... i don't even remember when i last blogged.. so busy with dark eden..its so bloody damn addictive!!!! now yasin is addicted too!! hahahaha.... anyway, nothing much happened in my life.. went to watch this play called "Lelaki, 9 akal 1 nafsu" with mirah, and two of he frens i forgot their names.. the only stuff i can remember nowadays are assciated with dark eden!... damn nice! adib was acting.. gerek ah.. the best component of the play was the music played, punyer lah jiwang!!!! siak tul... but made me kinda down actually.. but its ok, its alrite, everybody fight,fight,fight! anyway, the show was about the relationship between men and women, about how men were given 9 akal and 1 nafsu while women were given 9 nafsu and 1 akal.. not to say that men are smarter coz sometimes we can be the dumbest creature on earth! its about how they complete each other.. but throughout the show, all that is potrayed is the problems encountered such that to me it is so damn bloody hard to get into the right relationship! so i have come up with a solution... jeng jeng jeng! jangan matair sudah! relek jer.. maner nak pegi, org tak kisah, tak yah report strength, duit pun save! ( pader saper yg ader matair, jaga baik2.. jangan break pasal ko bacer ni blog! ni aku cumer nak sedapkan hati jer! :P) aper lagik yg aku nak tulis? oh yes! aku nyer vampire dah level 57!!! hahaha.. think tats it for now.. maybe i'll go back to playing dark eden..

2004-03-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

ok haven't been blogging for the pasat few days.. nothing much happened anyway... have an announcement to make.. starting from tody, i won't be blogging asa often as i used to cozi have a new hobby! started plying this online game called dark eden.. power giler!!!!!!!!!!!! its this online game thingy... so just wanted to tell u guys lah... don't have to trouble urself and check my blog every day.. hehehe.. macam lah ader banyak org tengok blog aku! so tats all for today's entry! gonna go play my game!!! hehehe

2004-03-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

not in the mood for blogging right now.. kinda down.. maybe i'll blog tomorrow.. going to sleep soon..

2004-03-07T03:14:00.000+08:00

aper giler aku hari ni!!! sorry about tat.. woke up at 1 today! was supposed to meet faz and the rest kul 12 kat orchard mrt pasal kiter nak gi GPA! called helzie.. turns out tat everyone was late! tapi paling lambat tetap aku ah..standard.. star karat... anyway, reached the place at around 2 plus.. called faz for my ticket then masuk.. the show started.. as usual, kiter 4 org buat lawak.. this time, amirah, fana, lina ngan fath were sitting with us so dorang pecah perut ah dengan kiter.. budak2 kat depan ngan belakang pun dah tak leh carry sak.. abih aper nak buat.. kalau mc dah macam nak mati, terpaksa lah kiter meriah kan... hehe... anyway, we had a break in between.. gi makan kat long john.. then by the time kiter habis makan, the show dah start.. abih ader bahlol maner tah dok kat tempat kiter so kiter kena dok kat tempat lain, which was right in front sak.. tu lah mistake aku... pasal tu, aku kena sabo.. kiter tengah happy2 sekali ader guess performance by Lynn.. pemenang artiste harapan kat APM.. dier kena nyanyi abih dier mintak volunteers untuk joget.. dengan selamba nyer, arip appoint aku!!! kepala angguk betul!! abih si lynn tu boleh nampak lak! tapi tak salah kan dier ah, pasal aku pakai baju oren striking sak...dah kena naik stage.. tu satu hal, nak kena joget pulak! aku ni bukan nyer jantan joget! tapi pasal dah kena sabo punyer pasal buat jer lah... abih tu, aku nyer giler naik.. makin jadik2 sak aku kacau lynn, buat lawak atas stage.. dah habis satu lagu, i went straight for the strairs! sekali kena tahan! lynn cakap ader lagik satu lagu!! kiwak betul.. dahalah tu, lagu zapin sak!! then i tot to myself, ni takleh jadik! aku terus gi kat lynn suruh dier carik lagik org pasal zapin kena ramai2! hehe .. aper lagik aku pun dengan pantas tarik si arip ngan helzie! padan muker! bodoh! bahlol! sabo aku lagik! baru ko tau! raser kan! at least jadik badot ramai2 ok jugak... nak tak nak kiter pon joget lah zapin.. after tat, kiter pon relek one corner macam budak baru traumatised.. after the whole thing, we went to sakura kat far east pasal the girls nak makan.. lepas tu, i went off to see fid kat tamp.. yg sial nyer, maser tengah jalan sorang2 tu, ader ni group pompuan tegur sak, " eh! ni yg joget tadi kan!" aku terus dah tak kena gaya.. senyum kat dorang terus aku belah! all the way tengok bawah jer..met fid abih gi lepak.. hayat ngan yan turun ngan wak.. lamer sak tak nampak dier..lepak sampai kul 11 then went home.. officially, IT HAS BEEN AN EMBARRESSING DAY!!!!

still wondering if amin is ok.. kesian sak.. found out that fadly is quiting drama.. ape hal lak ni.. but then again, tu semua bukan urusan aku...

2004-03-05T02:39:00.000+08:00

woke up damn early today! kul 7 lebih sak.. coz i had radio class kul 9... literally dragged myself out of bed.. went for class.. boring giler.. but actually quite ok ah... mrs nah is very cute.. dah lah macam humpty dumpty, all her words are accompanied with actions.. hehe had a bawl making fun of her.. anyway, we were supposed to listen to this recorded radio session which is 1 hour long then we get a break.. instead of listening to the whole thing.. we forwarded through it and the whole excercise lasted for only 15 minutes! mrs nah was like "eh? how come so fast?" so inthe end we got a damn long break! hehe.. gerek benar tipu cikgu.. u guys should try it! anyway, finished class.. lepak ngan adib and hui ru and mike.. then went home.. supposed to meet faz, sobah ngan helzie kat reservoir kul 530 tapi tak jadi pasal aku tertido... hehe.. boring sak dorang.. we were supposed to have a jog around the reservoir... don't ask why.. just felt like it ok... slept all the way ill 7 plus.. bangun sembahyang magrib then bacer yasin with my dad.. dah lamer sey tak bacer yasin.. terkial2 sak... fixed up mum's talbe after having dinner and straight away went online.. and so here i am! watched the 14th episode of smallville.. bodoh sak clark! serious... bayangkan, u have this girl of ur dreams whom u know loves u and is asking u whether u still love her... wat would u do... haiz.. kalau aku.. haiz......... nevermind.. this is making me all lonely and stuff...haiz... women.. can't live with them, yet you can't live with out them... maybe i should starting thinking of being a playa.. coz they seem to be so happy with all the gurls they want.. but then again, to be a playa u have to have the looks and the personality, qualities i can only desire to have... enough said.. chatting with mirah and farhanah right now.. i have class at 8 besok and i'm not even feeling sleepy right now.. and tomorrow is albert's class! fuck man..

2004-03-04T02:04:00.000+08:00

argh!!!! pening sak kepala ni.. aku rase pasal banyak sangat teh katai... just came back from lepak session.. didn't go to school today.. only had lecture so might as well skip.. lagik pun start kul 8 pagi sak.. malas giler... woke up at 3.. bummed around.. made some calls tapi takde org leh lepak.. tapi tu tolak tepi.. aku tak kan duduk rumah sehari suntuk! went out.. finally passed the ppp cd to budak drama.. sorry guys! aku baru jer jumpa balik... called faz.. nasib baik dier ader! dapat jugak teman lepak.. met him and helzie kat ang kiong.. lepak sampai kul 11 lebih sak.. kul 10 budak2 drama came down.. izhar pun lepak.. coz he wanted to talk to me.. so we talked.. all i can say is aku patut jadi lawyer ah.. lidah dah macam lidah biawak.. still wondering where fid is... satu hari tak call sak.. call rumah dier, takder kat rumah.. haiz..

2004-03-03T02:41:00.000+08:00

woke up at 3 plus today...woke to my mum screaming agian.. dah menjadi lumrah dunia.. kalau mak tak terpekik biler aku bangun, tak kan sah nyer.. so dragged myself to the bath room and bathed... oh yah forgaot to mention! today's my mum"s birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!~ TO YOU OH IBU!~ JANGAN BISING SELALU!~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBU!~( SUNG TO THE TUNES OF HAPPY BIRHDAY..) bought her a cd set of hindi songs! now i'm broke.. but its ok.. used the money on someone i care for.. went to meet amirah to give her Mr cinderella 2.. suker dier... we talked under her block for a while..asked her to come slack with me but she couldn' coz her mum is sick.. hope she gets better.. went to meet sheereen, farhan yasin and hyder.. slacked jap.. then walked home in the rain.. so nice to feel the rain drops on ur face... can't describe the feeling but it's definitely nice.. reached home but no ones home.. so i watched MX3.. kekek sak show! macam sial... saper yg lum tengok i recommend u to watch.. anyway, mum and dad got back, so we ate.. lauk special sak nari.. sambal tumis udang! dengan lauk sayur.. campur lak dengan murtabak ayam! lengkap dengan ais cream as dessert! fuyoh! kalau lah hari2 birthday mak aku, confirm gemuk sak aku! anyway, then i went online and so here i am.. have class at 8 besok tapi tak nak tido siang.. haiz.. chatting with mirah right now.. i sleep later...

2004-03-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

can't sleep yet.. so decided to give you guys the lyrics for the song ur hearing on my blog right now, for the benefit of those wondering...

HALLOWED BE THY NAME
by cradle of filth

I am waiting in my cold cell well the bell begins to chime
Reflecting on my past life and it doesn't have much time
Cause at 5O'Clock they take me to the galos pole
The Sands of time for me are running low

when the priest comes read me the last rights
I take a look through the bars as the last sight
of a world that has gone very wrong for me

Can it be there some sort of error
Hard to stop the surmounting terror
Is it really the end not some crazy dream?

Somebody pls tell me that I'm dreaming
Its not easy to stop from screaming
But words escape me when I try to speak
Tears they flow but why am I crying?
After all I'm not afraid of dying
Don't ever believe there never be an end

As the Guards march me out to the court yard
somebody cries from a cell "God be with you"
If there's a God then why does he let me die?

As I walk all my life drifts before me
All though the end is near I'm not sorry
Catch my soul it's willing to fly away

Mark my words believe my soul lives on
Don't worry now that I have gone
I've gone beyond to see the truth

So when you know your time is close at hand
Maybe you will begin to understand
Life is just a strang illusion

Ooohh ohh oh oh Hallowed be thy name
Ooohh ohh oh oh Hallowed be thy name

2004-03-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

woke up at 4 plus today.. didn't bother going for class.. got up bathed and went out to meet sheereen and farhan.. supposed to see a movie with all the S C people but it turns out tat most of them had something on.. left with me, farhan and sheereen jer.. kiwak, tak kan aku nak gi kacau daun sak.. anyway, i wasn't in the mood to watch a movie... so i temankan dorang sampai it was time for them to masuk, then went to slack alone kat festival park.. no one was there.. so peaceful.. feeling very depressed today.. entah asal.. yesterday was ok.. dikir comp macam sial.. our performance was bad.. i mean really bad.. CC macam sial.. tats why we're moving to another CC.. had a nice time slacking with mirah, amin, farhanah yasin and mirah's bro.. sampai kul 9 plus.. then went back.. going to sleep soon..

2004-02-29T02:25:00.000+08:00

woke up at 11 just now.. kejut fid macam org giler sak..mati2 tak nak bangun! at last bangun juga coz my dad dah berbunyik.. hehe.. went to school with fid.. dier naik beskel, i blade.. MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARA!! tapi biler sampai kat junction, keluar kan rokok.. hehhe.. passed the spears i took home to titisan... told them i'm quitting drama.. YES PEOPLE!! I'M QUITTING DRAMA... pls don't ask why.. just accept it.. now i can focus on other things in my life... slacked ngan budak2 kat techno sampai kul 2 plus then went home.. tido jap sampai kul 4 then went to my uncle's place to help move the stuff coz he's moving to a new place.. used up all my enrgy which wasn't much to begin with coz i haven't eaten anything the whole day.. by the time we finished, i was like flat on the ground, literally! they odered chicken rice for everyone and i aet two packets sak.. kebulur giler! anyway, after that went home at bathed.. so refreshing! and straight away went online.. chat with mirah and fana and also amin! love that guy.. so adorable.. a lot of things happening right now.. my world is a chaotic blur.. ArGH!! GI JAHANAM NGAN DUNIA.. going to sleep now.. have competition tomorrow.. damn! belum hafal karut kelantan sak!!!!

2004-02-28T04:07:00.000+08:00

aku tengah bingit.. malas nak blog.. aku nak gi tido..

2004-02-27T16:36:00.000+08:00

didn't blog again yesterday.. my mum was being very naggy so didn't want to go through the wrath of a mother..anyway, i'm at home right now waiting for hayat or fid to call so we can meet up before going for dikir.. kinda bored coz i've been trying to download episode 13 of smallville but can't seem to do so.. pelik sak.. lain semua boleh! termasuk yg tak sepatutnyer di download! haiz.. maybe i'll post again later.. for now aku nak gi makan...

2004-02-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

didn't blog yesterday coz i was too tired.. cam maner tak penat? satu hari berjemur kat bawah matahari yg terik lagik menghitamkan! sampai kean sunburn sak! ni semua pasal committee MAG yg bodoh! pegi organise sports day time hari panas2.. lain kali check lah weather forecast dulu! anyway, yesterday was one of those days when i'm extra giler.. i felt so hot tat i took off my jeans and spent the whole day in my boxers.. abih nak buat aper, dah terluper nak bawak shorts..fid came down a few hours later.. made him eat coz he hasn't eaten properly for 2 days! ni semua budak sial tu ah.. after tat went to slack.. then went to dikir.. all the way, fid was like a guy having pms.. very sensitve to very little thing.. so now he knows how girls feel.. hehe..can't really blame him..if i was in his situation, i'll probably be worse off.. chibai punyer budak.. pasal ko brader aku cam ni sak.. people reading, don't bother asking wat happen coz i won't tell..

anyway, today was a slacking day as usual... jumpa hayat ngan fid kat tamp central.. lepak kat small mac, cuci mata.. :) then went to roam around TM dah penat tawaf, kiter jumper az ngan fadly kat back lanes of brooklyn.. lepak sampai kul 7 plus then went to dikir.. went home after slacking kat hanip jap.. and here i am! maybe i stay up and watch the soccer match later.. but then again maybe i'll just go to sleep.. we'll just see.. hope man utd wins tonite then aku leh ketawa kan muker sham besok! hahaha!

2004-02-24T05:01:00.000+08:00

today was a very peaceful day.. woke up at 2, i think, without my mum nagging at me.. wat a relief.. i notice something about myself .. i'm starting to get more and more impatient lately.. its like i'm a volcano just waitng to erupt.. well actually i erupted a couple of times already..to those reading, jangan kacau aku! nanti aku mengamuk susah.. kalau fid takper.. pasal dier memang ska kacau aku jadi dah biaser.. missing shikin.. she has a few tests coming up so i don't think i'll bother her this week.. haven't been chatting with amirah.. wonder if she's fine maybe i'll drop her a msg later.. stayed home the whole day except to go for dk practice.. watched casper the movie.. still melt everytime i watch the last part where casper turned into a human being and danced with the girl.. haiz.. so sweet.. which i had the chance to slow dance with tat special person.. but too bad, i don't even have a special person in the first place.. have CDS class tomorrow at 9.. yet i'm still awake at 5 in the morning.. haiz.. don't know wat do to with myself..gonna sign off now.. here's something for you guys to ponder upon

If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other.

But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it,you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love.

It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey for your soul mate.

2004-02-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

woke up damn early today.. ader madrasah.. kiwak, org giler jer bangun kul 8 sak.. dah lah tido kul 5! furthermore, there was no class, just a gathering to celebrate the new year.. and i found tat out after rushing to get ready, thinking tat i might be late for class!! bodoh betul.. anyway, went to the masjid.. made everyone laugh as usual... sampai my mum can't even say anything.. caught one girl stealing glances at me.. kalau sekali dua takper! ni dah sampai nak balik pun kena tengok muker aku! pelik benar..miss shikin.. just wanted to say tat.. went home tengok tv kejap..been a long time i haven't sat down and watch tv.. then i felt tired so went to sleep.. woke up at 9 plus.. makan and went online.. so here i am..maybe i'll go out tomorrow.. tu pun kalau ader org nak slack samer2 ah..

2004-02-22T03:43:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT TAHUN BARU ISLAM!!! a lot of things happened today.. well not tat much, come to think of it.. woke up at 1 plus tody.. house was empty.. every one went to johore to do some grocery shopping.. went to ang kiong.. to meet fid, hayat ngan the slackers club.. was supposed to meet fid ngan hayat earlier at 10 tapi terbangun lambat.. they were damnpissed off.. hehe.. sorry beb.. but managed to calm them down by buying them some drinks.. SOGOK JANGAN TAK SOGOK! bloody hot day! so after slacking for a while kat angkiong, we went to starbucks kat tamp, yg kat atas coz we wanted some aircon.. dah takde keje kiter main macam2 game sak! one of the game was tat none of us were allowed to maki.. kiwak! peh susah!! dah macam budak bodoh try substitute word maki ngan word lain for example, kan nina jadi kak nina, macam sial jadi manchester united.. hayat sampai pakai phrase besar peh keypad lock.. hahaha kekek sak... but the word of the hour was APA SEY!! then ader budak bodoh kena duck walk around the starbucks counter! coz she cursed.. hahaha.. after tat most of them left tinggal fid, hayat, az, yan jane, fadly and me.. went to chai chee restaurant.. change of mood there.. coz all of us tengah bingit ngan ni budak.. nak langgar wire ngan salah org sak.. az left to meet someone.. so the five of us gi al amin to see if this fucking guy ader tak.. sat there and waited.. sekali dier leh muncul lah! to cut things short, hayat really wasn't happy so dier call budak ni.. dier bebual kejap abih tu pass kat matair dier! bob pelir takder sak! but anyway, we know everything there is to know about him so biler2 pun boleh carik.. then we went off.. sekali ader tiga budak kejar bus macam budak bodoh tapi bus tak nak stop.. hehe.. abih nak tutup malu , action main amazing race.. makcik ngan duduk pun geleng kepaler jer.. so after seeing all of them off, went home.. and here i am.. i'll sign off with the phrase of the day.. ader pergi ader balik, tapi kalau hayat dah pergi, org semua terbalik! renungkan...

2004-02-20T02:21:00.000+08:00

well.. today is yet another slacking day.. woke up at 4, mum nagging away.. aaaaarrrrrrrrggggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boring sak!! anyway, got up, bathed and called fid ngan yasin.. met them kat safron kul7 plus coz i decided to play coke music!! bloody damn addictive game sia.. ni semua pasal fid lah.. aku takleh tido sak main game tu.. i suggest u guys try it! go to www.cokemusic.com power giler nyer.. anyway, lepak sampai kul 10 then went back... wanted to blog earlier tapi my computer kena worm.. so made yasin help me download some anti virus stuff and now its ok! thankz a million yasin!!! maybe nanti aku belanja ko rokok kaper ah.. tapi tak janji ah! tengok saham cam maner dulu.. still playing right now so not really in the mood to blog.. hehe.. i'll stop here for now.. gonna mix some beats..

2004-02-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

today is a very lethargic day.. so nothing much happened.. i woke up at 6 in the evening!!! hahaha.. and my mum didn't even say a word! wat a surprise... just said tat i should wake up but after tat didn't even bother saying anything..
suddenly i'm reminded of wat fid usually say," sekali? dier bising.. dua kali? dier bising.. tiga kali? dier tak kuaser!!!!" hehe.. think it's kinda true.. anyway, didn't wanna go mengaji so msged every one in my phonebook asking if anyone wanted to slack but everone had something on! even people in the slackers club.. haiz... but it's ok coz in the end i didn't have to go mengaji coz i told my mum i have a grp meeting.. bohong lagik! hehe.. fetched my brother from my aunt's place.. met my cousin.. god damn it i want an Xbox!! shit! the games they have are fucking good! played a demo version of some ninja game.. ended up spending several hours there.. didn't wanna stop untilmy mum called.. tat was like around 12 plus midnight! hehe.. anyway, went back and so here i am! meething fid again tomorrow.. maybe slack through the day... we'll see...

2004-02-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

GOD! THANK YOU FOR THIS DAY! EXCEPT THE TEST PART LAH.. k lets do this chronologically.. woke up at 10 today.. supposed to be in school by 11! got up, mandi macam org gila... by the time i was ready, it's already10:35! i was like, shit! shit! gonna be late for the test! nasib baik lah bapak aku ader.. he sent me to school... reached school at about 10:50.. the test turned out to be ok.. but then again, everytime i say, it's ok, turns out tat i flunk it..so anyway, finished it then went home.. saw muiz at the bus stop.. chat with him for a while.. he had a test at 2 and he's already in school even before 1!! org giler jer datang cepat2!! and the funny thing was, he wasn't even studying! just sitting there smoking.. went home, checked some stuff on the net.. like how the hell am i suppose to get to compass point coz i was supposed to meet shikin there...chat with amirah.. then went out...

i was on the way to meet shikin when i have this frightening tot.. wat if it wasn't shikin who wanted to meet me.. wat if it was her father coz he usually checks her phone.. beter safe than sorry! so i did some quick thinking.. and i decided, since i was supposed to meet her at the taxi stand, i'll make a detour and spot her from a far first! did that but everything turned out fine.. had a wonderful time with her... went to the library to check some books on art.. things were just like when we were a couple.. haiz.. missed her so much... spent a few hours in compass point.. talking and joking all the way.. had lunch/dinner at KFC.. just couldn't stop looking at her.. especially when she's telling a story with her face full of expression..then we met fid and di kat joe corner.. haven't seen di in a long while! she cut her hair and she looked so tired.. so poor thing... anyway, we sent di and shikin off and went to play pool.. pelik benar, thrashed fid 7 to 2.. could see that his mind is wondering..

went to meet azckat tamp.. she was wearing her sis nyer specs! hehe.. dah macam budak2 sey muker.. dah lah dier pendek! hehe.. anyway, slacked sampai kul 11 kat mac.. then went to see fid off.. pelik nyer, jumpe yasin kat bus stop.. pasal i was just talking to him on the phone tadi.. took a bus with him home.. and now here i am! today has indeed been a great day.. looking forward to meeting shikin again tapi don't know when.. we'll just wait and see..

2004-02-17T04:27:00.000+08:00

today has been a boring day... nothing much happened but then again maybe coz i woke up at 4 in the afternoon! hehe.. don't know why i was exhausted. as soon as i woke up, called several people about borrowing their cross culture text book.. thank god lay peng had it.. she a life saver.. went out to get it from ehr.. met mamat sabri and indra kat techno.. wanted so much to slack with them! but had to remain focused and study... tried to study kat bawah blok tapi can't get anything inside my head so by 7 plus i was back home.. sampai jer rumah my mum was nagging at my bro.. dalam hati, shit! wrong time to be home.. but wat to do i already stepped into the house.. mum nagged at me becoz of the mess in my room.. tried my best to pls her by touching up on some of he stuff in my room.. thank god it worked.. said to myself, i'll study after a few rounds of CS.. but guess wat! it's now 4 plus in the morning and i haven't even opened the book! i gonna fucking fail my paper! and its all becoz of CS.. haiz.. gonna check my timetable now.. then ganna go to sleep.. after the test tomorrow, going out with shikin to help her find some books kat compassvale point, where eva that is..

2004-02-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

i'm finally 20!!!!!!! feel so old sak... didi some thinking today, just like every birthday.. felt quite unsatisfied actually.. haven't really done anything much in twenty years.. but i'm taking things positively so i've decided to something about some aspects of my life.. spent the day kat rumah.. went out to meet yasin at around 7 plus.. birthday boys' nite out... hehhe.. its kinda cool to have someone with the same birthday as u..

anyway, yesterday was fun! spent the day kat siglap cc.. helped with the set up for anugerah dikir.. time nak masuk yg palin kekek! everyone dah masuk so kiter rushed to the entrance.. time baru nak masuk, we saw the food so everyone of us took as much food as we can then we stepped inside... the moment we stepped in, everyone turned to look... we froze.. bayangkan, 20 guys standing at the doorway, holding plates macam org bersalah! then we realised that everyone else belum ambik makanan pun! tapi gi jahanam! kiter duduk and ate our way through the opening speeches... durbar dua put up a very good but sad show... they dedicated the performance to their fren who died a few months ago.. i knew tat guy.. and now he's gone.. makes me think of when i'll die... anyway, we won best karut ngan kumpulan terbaik.. it was so touching to see bobo cry... we all know tat he's been through soooooo much for the grp.. and we all love him for tat.. but he'll be going off to malaysia to further his studies soon... wonder how andika would be without him... haiz...
just won't be the same... nothing else to say.. i'm in the mood for love right now.. lastly, thanks to all of you people who took the trouble to wish me happy birthday.. really appreciate it.. sayang jugak korang kat aku eh!!!

2004-02-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!! hari ni hari gerek giler babi kedaung nyer!!! coz tadi i got to spend time with shikin!!! she dropped by my shcool tadi with her fren.. showed her my school... she is as sweet as ever!! maybe even sweeter than the last time i saw her... spent a few hours in school pastu her fren wanted to go home.. tot she had to go off to, felt down a bit.. sekali, dier cakap dier leh leapk jap.. so we went to tamp central, jalan2 so nice to have her with me again.. joked around like we used to.. GEREK SAK!!! missed those times.. to shorten the story, we walked all over tamp central together.. then she had to go home.. waited with her until 72 came, kissed her hand (hand jer! bukan lain2!) then waved her off until the bus went off.. haiz... hope i'll see her again soon.. then went to meet fid ngan indra kat teh tarik cartel.. az joined.. lepak till 7 plus then jumpa wan jali then gi dikir.. penat sak training.. went straight home after that and here i am... anyway, for those people who are lucky enough to have dates for tomorrow, i dedicated this song( the one being played in this blog) to all of you!!! have a great day tomorrow.. to guys, aprreciate ur girls better and don't look at other girls( kalau nak tengok pun janganlah obvious sangat!) to girls, jangan buat perangai and start blaming on PMS! hope all ur relationships last as long as the world exists!! love u all!!!

2004-02-13T08:33:00.000+08:00

gd morning everyone!!!!!!!!!! had a nice time yesterday..wanted to put it all down on blog but was too tired.. slept at 7 plus sak! anyway, i was a bit on the crazy side yesterday.. kecoh giler sak.. i think those secondary school students won't wanna join tp after seeing me acting like a lunatic.. the highlight of the day was the performance.. nervous giler.. tapi act cool jer.. had some stuff prepared but as soon as mamat opened his mouth, everything in my mind went blank! i was like fuck, fuck fuck... calmed down and started reacting to wat mamat said.. nasib baik tak gamam! tried my best, tapi ader yg tak ryhme ah.. but ITS OK, TIS ALL RIGHT! EVERYBODY FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!! after changing, i joined budak drama slack kat techno.. after tat went straight home and as i said earlier slept! hehe ad here i am now.. thought i had class at 8, sekali found out tat its cancelled! nasib baik lum keluar rumah..

2004-02-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

missed lecture again today... but its ok.. woke up at 3 in the afternoon.. today is a great day!!! so touched with the drama people... i'll tell u the story in a while.. after waking up, thought of wat i would be wearing for the performance.. ghairah sak, maklum lah.. first time nak jadi karut... anyway, pastu went for drama.. tats when my day became wonderful.. AKU TELAH DITIPU!! KENA SABO SAK... dorang went through the trouble of lying tat there's a meeting with sobah kat stadium pastu aleh2 gi reservoir... kat situ lah aku kena!!!

tuan2 dan puan2, ramuan untuk mengSABO orang adalah coke, tepung telur dan juga gula secukup rase.. anyway, if u guys are reading this, just wanna say thank you very much.. this is the best birthday i've ever had.. its a nice way to end my teenage days... god! i'm fucking 20! well not actually, still have a few more days to go... IBU!!!! BILA DIDIQ NAK KAHWIN!!!! hehehe... but i think my life has not been wasted... coz i have frens tat care for me... especially in the slackers club... one special person in my life is fid! don't start thinking tat i'm gay... not tat there's anything wrong with tat.. i live for my frens and family!! kalau tak, life is not worth living... anyway.. here i am, just got back from slacking at techno.. baru jer habis mandi.. fid is sleeping over.. gonna go to sleep soon.. besok ader class kul 8 sak...

2004-02-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

harlow peeps! Feeling better today.. Maybe wat mirah said was true.. i haven't been having enough sleep.. So i made up for it by sleeping for 14 hours straight! Didn't even wake up to go for lecture! Anyway, went out and meet fid.. he just had a jab on his ass.. hehe.. Telling me all about it with his face full of expressions! So funny... Just love tat guy...Sat down under the block in front of tp.. Then wanted to go to teh Tarik cartel but saw mamat ngan sabri so decided to go to techno... Slacked there till about 11.. Today is such a relaxing day... Found out tat mid term test is next week! Didn't know about tat! Shit! Have to start studying!!!!! Well tats it.. Nothing else to talk about.. Now, I'm chatting with mirah.. Been chatting with her almost every nite...

2004-02-10T00:11:00.000+08:00

actually feeling very down right now.. don't really know why.. maybe coz i had a heart to heart talk with fid about my life just now.. and maybe coz i've been reflecting on my life alone... not tat its been bad or anything, just felt tat i haven't really achieved anything of significance in my 20 years living.. don't really wanna talk about my day coz nothing really happened, just the usual stuff... just don't understand why people take the people who loves them for granted...don't they feel anything when the do tat? don't they ever think of the consequences? haizzzz... apsal lah aku cam gini nari.. pelik benar..Mungkin PMS agaknyer..(",) listening to di pintu syurga by KRU... such a sweet song... isn't it nice to have someone u love so much waiting for u in front of heaven's gates... haizzz... to u people reading, always treasure all the people who loves u! even if they can be annoying at times.. live for the moment... think tats all i can type right now...

ketika bulan aku renungkan,
wajahmu terbayang di ingatan;
teringat kembali saat pertama,
waktu kita bertentang mata....

senyuman manis memukau hati,
menusuk ke dalam jiwa naluri;
alangkah indahnya saat bersama,
bergurau senda sambil bermesra...

kadangkala ku rindu wajahmu,
dan ku dambarkan sentuhanmu;
ku tatapi potret mu dan berdoa,
agar kita kan bersama;
ke akhirnya....

sayangnya malang tidak berbau,
keriangan ku diganti pilu;
cintamu padaku diibaratkan debu,
hilang bersama hembusan bayu...

kini sendiri aku di sini,
mengubati luka yang merah membara;
bersama ku bawa memori dan puisi,
sebagai teman penglipur lara.....

ciptaan insan yg jahil...

2004-02-08T13:33:00.001+08:00

A lot of things happened yesterday! Mood tengah giler habis! I had CDS lesson in the morning at 9.. Didn't know where the classroom was so decided to be there early.. The class was so bloody boring!!! But I think its gone be useful for me.. So I have decided to stay on... Anyway it's a 3 hour class.. Before I got into class, saw faizah.. As sweet as ever.. She had a meeting to get to so didn't stop to chat.. Suffered through the 3 hours and when it was over, I was the first to get my ass out of class.. Went to meet fid and az after their 1/2 to 1 hour session... hehehe.. Had a drink then went to meet faz ngan amin, terus gi NYJC for the GPA thing.. It was quite boring actually coz it seems like most of the schools didn't really have any tech runs before the actual thing.. coz the instruments played and the background music was so loud that the actors' voices were drowned...Tried to pay attention to wat was being said but by the 10th school, faz, helzie, arip and me we were playing uno in the middle of the lecture theatre.. I cracked so many jokes tat the girls tat were sitting beside me couldn't stop laughing.. Then came the time to announce the schools that made it to the finals... everytime a schools name was called, all four of us stood up and celebrated as if it was our school! hahaha.. Everyone in the theater couldn't stop laughing every time we stood up.. Forgot one detail.. Yesterday, my right hand became a support bar for two girls! How lucky can a guy be! HEHE.. TAK KAN KU CUCI TANGAN KU INI! After the whole thing ended, we went back to tampines, playing uno all the way.. Sat at lisboah till 10 plus then went home.. I'm definitely going for the finals.. Today on the other hand, is a boring day.. Went for madrasah, slept through most of it.. Sent my brother to my aunt's house and then went home, so here I am.. Think I'll sleep my way through the day..

2004-02-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happened yesterday! mood tengah giler habis! i had CDS lesson in the morning at 9.. didn't know where the classroom was so decided to be there early.. the class was so bloody boring!!! but i think its gonna be useful for me.. so i have decided to stay on... anyway it's a 3 hour class.. before i got into class, saw faizah.. as sweet as ever.. sher had a meeting to get to so didn't stop to chat.. suffered through the 3 hours and when it was over, i was the first to get my ass out of class.. went to meet fid and az after their 1/2 to 1 hour session... hehehe.. had a drink then went to meet faz ngan amin, terus gi NYJC for the GPA thing.. it was quite boring actually coz it seems like most of the schools didn't really have any tech runs before the actual thing.. coz the instruments palyed and the background music was so loud that the actors' voices were drowned...tried to pay attention to wat was being said but by the 10th school, faz, helzie, arip and me we were playing uno in the middle of the lecture theatre.. i cracked so many jokes tat the girls tat were sitting beside me couldn't stop laughing.. then came the time to anounce the shcools that made it to the finals... everytime a schools name was called, all four of us stood up and celebrated as if it was our school! hahaha.. everyone in the theater couldn't stop laughing every time we stood up.. forgot one detail.. yesterday, my right hand became a support bar for two girls! how lucky can a guy be! HEHE.. TAK KAN KU CUCI TANGAN KU INI! after the whole thing ended, we went back to tampines, playing uno all the way.. sat at lisboah till 10 plus then went home.. i'm definitely going for the finals.. today on the other hand, is a boring day.. went for madrasah, slept through most of it.. sent my brother to my aunt's house and then went home, so here i am.. think i'll sleep my way through the day..

2004-02-07T03:13:00.000+08:00

For today's entry, I (Fid) shall be posting coz Sid is too tired n has gone to sleep. our friend has a class tmr at 8... class on Saturdays.... Kinda remind me of my Pri. sch dayz... Bodoh... So yes, I'm sleepin over at his place... missed the last bus juz now... bodoh kan... today i met sid at starbucks ard 8.30... was supposed to go for andika but we were too lazy n prefered to stay on talking to azlina n her 2 bez friends, Siti Hawa n Hidayana... Had a nice Q&A session... kinda like an ice-breaking session wit lots of "kalered-mengalered"... hehehe.... Sid iz sleeping soundly in his boxers.... so peaceful... too peaceful... gonna disturb him as soon as i finish this entry.... as for me, will be resting my sore eyes soon... gonna leave u guys wit this lyrics frm Busta Rhymes... Cool song... nice lyrics...

"Light Your Ass On Fire"
(feat. Pharrell Williams)

[Intro: Pharrell Williams]
Whachu say your name was?
Well um, lookin real sexy right now
You and your girls, are lookin good
Look why don't y'all take off y'all jackets
What's your name baby? word? okay
Tell your friend right there this, this my man Busta

[Verse: Busta Rhymes]
Hah, I know you starving for this shit
Baby I'm feeling your hunger
I'm so clean call a nigga Felix Ungar
So what if I said it baby I'm still gon' tell ya
I hope your ass bigger than Willona and Thelma
Listen, it's Busta Rhymes bitch I ain't never fail ya
Your ass all over like paraphernalia, hmm
See the police gon jail ya
For walking around wit the kind of ass that'll kill ya now
Don't worry bout it I got money to bill ya
Shorty stacking like a mule, type of shit that'll scare ya
Headboard bang, bump the side of ya head
Watch how ya ass spread spill all off the side of the bed now, hmm
Now whachu do to the dread? baby your ass really changed
What he initially said because a nigga dead
But fuck em! cause now we vibing and talking and shit
I love to hear your ass go (ga ga goon) when you walking and shit

[Chorus: Pharrell Williams]
Move girl like your ass on fire - like your ass on fire
Move girl like your ass on fire - like your ass on fire
Move girl I'll light your ass on fire - I'll light your ass on fire
Move girl I'll light your ass on fire - Bitch I'll light that ass on fire
Move girl I'll light your ass on fire

[Verse: Busta Rhymes]
Bust it, baby I know you probably really
Need a table cloth to cover your ass
Digging in your pocket while you rubbing yo ass
Shit so big just put the club in yo ass
Prep the H2 park it right infront of yo ass
I see your little gap between your cunt and yo ass
And make you jump inside the whip and smoke a blunt wit yo ass
I'm saying hmm, the shit'll spread like a rash
The way they ass wiggles see I got the shit on a smash now listen
I light the L smell a wiff of the hash
And bag all the bitches, now watch you see me zip in a flash
I'm saying hmm, now I'm a put you on blast
Just like a tint window when you put your shit on the glass
Bust right through the window then it sit on the dash
And have a nigga driving wreckless till you making him crash
(Hah, c'mon) we making money and shit
Now pop your muffin while we be watching you shaking your shit

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Welcome to hot in Hazyville
It make you wanna dance till you break your heels
I know you love the way the God make your feel
Now watch me get deeper than a Navy Seal (Navy Seal?)
It got a crazy feel, shit feel like you in a danger field
Hypnotize, stuck it in her, daze for real
That's exactly why we call this one Hazyville (Hazyville)

[Verse: Busta Rhymes]
Baby, just shake ya ass till you spread on the floor
I noticed that your ass too big for your draws
You need a - a chiropractor just to marry yo ass
To tell the truth you need a tractor just to carry yo ass
Fo reala, you motherfuckers probably think that I'm playing
All bitches love to talk and all that other shit I be saying
And going hmm, see how you putting it down
I love the way you shake it throw it around!

2004-02-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

NEWS UPDATE!!!
One bloody fucker set the dustbin under blk 263 tampines on fire... the blk was lucky enough to have siddiq who called the police and helped put out the fire all by himself! armed with a bucket full of water, he valiantly put out the raging flame!! so the day wasn't tat bad after all!! hehehe... is it just me or is my room full of smoke?

2004-02-06T00:58:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a boring day... But then it ended off pretty well.. Got up at about 8 am... Had a shock of my life when I couldn't see anything with my right eye! Started to panic and went straight to the mirror.. When I looked into the mirror, found out tat my right eye wasn't even open! Had such a huge amount of eye crap my eye was glued shut! After cleaning it up a bit, saw tat it was bloody red! Couldn't be bothered to worry so went to the toilet, bathed and got ready for school... Couldn't wear my contacts today coz I'm worried in case my eye would get worse... Went to school and reached class at exactly 9:15 so managed to convince my tutor not to mark me as absent.. Damned fucked up tutor gave me such a hard time...We were told to produce a radio program.. My horny side took over so I suggested doing a program about the positions in the kamasutra! After recording it onto the MD, we presented and the whole class started laughing like mad.. Felt gd about tat... Wanted to ask faizah out for lunch but didn't manage to muster enough courage so I went straight to CCA room alone... Had a 2 hour nap there.. Damn nice sia... Woke up to find Cici, Boy Cute ngan Adik Comel (anyway, they're just nicknames! Who the hell would give their children such names!) talking... Waited for kak nina( yet another nickname) then went to engine to have lunch.. You wouldn't believe the amount of onions they put into the fried rice! ORG GILER JER YANG MAKAN BAWANG!!! So anyway, by the time I finished the food, there was a huge pile of onions on the side of the plate... aku rase makcik nak bunuh aku ngan bawang ah... After tat, went back to CCA room... Slacked and bebual konek sampai kul 6 plus... Then went to techno... Found out tat I should change several things about myself.. Such an enlightening moment.. Found out from sheereen tat lagu Paling Comel defines me... entah asal.. Maybe coz I always sing tat song.. Went home at 9 plus quite early considering we usually slack till 11 plus.. Had a very strong urge to pee while I was in the bus.. Couldn't stop moving! az and fad was laughing coz this couple behind me was staring at me but who the hell cares! I need to pee! So I peed( if there's such a word) at a coffee shop then went home... And one last thing, I dreamt tat a bat was chasing this crow... Don't think it's much of a significance but I just wanted to write tat down and it was a huge bat!Ok enough... Class starts at 8 tomorrow!! Org giler jer bangun pagi2!! AARRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!

2004-02-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS A GREAT DAY!!!! It did start out pretty badly today coz first of all I didn't manage to wake up thus not able to go for radiopro lecture... Slept like a log until it was like 1 in the afternoon! I would have continued sleeping if it wasn't for fid.. He was really pissed off with me coz I was supposed to meet him after my lecture which was around 10... Heard him nag through the phone for a while, half asleep.... After tat, forced myself to get up, bathe and got ready.. All the while msging with fid about az's fren, faizah, a VERY sweeeeeeeeetttttt girl I've neva dared talk to... Finally got to school and met up with fid... Treated him to lunch so as to make up for waking up late.....After tat when to find az... Found her in front of the OSC wit her grp mates including faizah! Made a conscious effort not to stare at her face... Went out of school with them, had a smoke and found out tat faizah had a D & D on Friday so she needed a dress... So az had to go home to take a dress for her with fid while I accompanied faizah to look for a dress kat central... I felt butterflies in my stomach man! ME temankan this sweet girl look for a dress? saper yg tak nak!

I actually tot that she was the type yg senyap when she's with someone she doesn't know well tapi it turns out tat we can talk comfortably.. Really enjoyed talking to her...Firstly made her try on this pink dress which she liked from metro.. Told her she looked really cute in it but she said she wanted to browse through first... So we went to isetan then went to this fashion in sogo found this really nice dress.. Told her to give it a try and she did... The moment she stepped out of the fitting room, I was like "whoa........................." She looked gorgeous!! fid and az came back at the right time and saw her in the dress and fid had the same reaction as I did...After convincing her, she decided to buy the dress...

after tat sat at macdonalds and we talked... And talked... And talked until around 7:30.. Then we sent the girls of to the interchange coz the wanted to go home, then we went for dikir practice kat school... Really shagged after tat... Went straight home and so here I am.... Going to sleep now...

2004-02-04T06:44:00.000+08:00

Got up at 7:30 today without my mum screaming into my ear.. Can u imagine tat! ME waking up all by myself without the help of my mum! It was unbelievable... Anyway, went to see my course manager, Brendan Wong at 9... Tot it was something really bad coz my lecturer said tat he wanted to see me about my status in school.. Damn freaked out siaz.... But it turned out that it was just about me having to take another CDS.. Stupid lecturer! Make me kan chong for no reason... So ya, I enrolled in another CDS then by the time I left his office, it was only 9:15 and my next class is at 4pm.. Tat is 6 bloody long hours away! Called some of the panjy guys but all of them had classes so couldn't slack with them.. Had no choice but to go home..

got home, gave mum a packet of teh tarik I bought on the way back, her favorite drink nowadays...Got on the net and checked some stuff.. After tat went to sleep..

later went to lecture, damn bored.. Albert toh babbled all the way... I swear he has something against me.. Keep asking me all the qns I can't answer like "wats the latest development in the printing industry that deals with stochastic blah,blah,blah".. I didn't even get the rest of the qn..Anyway after that I was supposed meet fid to go for dikir practice but found out that I had pentas committee meeting so had to call fid to meet him at a later time.. He was damn pissed off! Went for the meeting cracked jokes all the way until no one could concentrate.. They ended up finishing the meeting early.. hehe! All thanks to me!!Met fid under his grandma's blk..We were supposed to reach siglap cc by 7:30 but at 9, we were still at the bus stop in bedok! So we decided to slack at a nearby coffee shop.. Made a move at 10:30... Reached home.. Tricked my bro into letting me use the comp saying tat I had a net meeting but actually I wanted to download smallville season 3... I've been on the comp till now... Talking to mirah.. Seriously worried about her not having enough sleep.. nanti sakit, aku jugak susah! hehehe macam real jer... Anyway, tats it for now.. Well quite a long entry for my first... Think I'm gonna like this...